Coping, Comments And Apologies...

Hi Honeys, 

I noticed something this morning and just wanted to post an apology, lots of apologies actually.💖  

I'd noticed recently that a lovely comment had been left under one of my posts (weekend musings and finding smiles) but before I could reply it disappeared.  Actually a bunch of comments, under lots of different posts, have been deleted but as far as I know the rest were "spam" comments (not related to anything in the post but including a link to a website, or sometimes just a link itself.)  

I have no idea if it's Google who've done a "clear up" of some kind, (although I don't remember them ever having done it before) or if whoever left the lovely comment (it mentioned the roses💖) came back and deleted it, thinking I couldn't be bothered to reply?  I do hope that's not what happened honeys, I really do.  I had noticed the comment but just wasn't able to reply at the time. 

Scroll past this next bit honeys, life's too short x

Anyone who has read any of the posts in this blog will know dear ones, that I dislike "pity parties" and try really hard not to let myself wallow in any "woe is me" time.  I've battled depression for too many years and know how easily it can take over.  Far better to be positive, to see the best in situations and to count my blessings, of which there are many I know and for which I really am very, very grateful.  For the last, almost two years though, it's been incredibly difficult to find my inner Pollyanna, my always happy, always "it'll be fine" attitude.  I'm still looking for her though x

This has had a domino effect on other areas of my life too, making it more difficult to cope with (or put up with) worsening health issues including stubbornly high blood pressure, asthma and arthritis (rheumatoid and osteo) that's trying to take away what little mobility I have left.   Apparently the osteoarthritis in my spine may have "progressed" they won't know for sure until I have another MRI scan.  I'm due back to the hospital clinic in the autumn so might find out then.  I don't sleep honeys, most often I have two to four hours broken sleep every night.  

You can see why dear ones that I try very hard not to wallow. I'm trying to find my way back to the sunnier me, some days it's just so much harder is all.  Now, that's enough complaining, really enough and if you just read all of that, thank you dear ones for caring.💞  It means more than I can tell you🥰💖🤗  

Comments and apologies...

Back to this post then.  I just really wanted to apologise to whoever had written that lovely comment (there wasn't a name, I think it just said unknown) I'm sorry that I wasn't able to reply before it was deleted.  If you should ever get to see this post, thank you for taking the time to comment and for being so sweet.💖🤗🥰  

I'm sorry honeys that I haven't been posting so often for such a while, I am trying to do better, but thank you for still keeping me company and making this little corner of the internet less lonely.💖🤗 

I hope that you're having the best week and looking forward to the weekend, till next time dear ones, sending you mountains of hugs always x