Hi Honeys,
The past two years or so haven't been great have they, but we've finally arrived in my favourite season of the year and, given everything happening in the world, maybe its time to start to make plans instead of worrying about the future. I'm talking to myself most of all here honeys. No more moping about Rosie!
I've spent most of the last year or so practising my super-hermit skills and hiding away from the world. It really does have to stop now though. It's gotten unhealthy. Yes honeys, no matter how difficult it is to stop it, the hiding-away has to end.
Time to find the old Rosie. The one who full-on-belly-laughs, the one who sees rainbows instead of clouds and just irritates all sense out of co-workers by wearing a huge smile all the time. The one who is just grateful for every single day and annoys all patience out of everybody around her by only seeing the best in every situation.
Of course, a good part of my sun-is-always-shining persona has always been a mask, having battled depression for so many years. Over time though, I found that just being around people seemed to naturally blend with the genuine gratitude I felt for all of the blessings in my life. The result was that happy, always-smiling Rosie. Even on bad days. For bad days I have my coping mechanisms, among them, visiting my beautiful beach. The same beach that helped me through a CT scan.
I'm sure smiley Rosie is still in here somewhere, waiting to be found again. It's been over a year honeys, it's past time to pull up my big girl pants, put on my most determined expression and go find her...
